sabr
Salam,
So.. It has been days..
Just a few days left before I get to leave Palam for my mid sem break. I gotta admit, Degree's life was not the same as the days in Diploma at Melaka. My diploma in Lendu was a nightmare that makes me stronger yet grateful. On the contrary, Degree in Palam was a bit... leisure? I think this is the first sem in my study life to feel so... calm? Maybe it is because the environment was kinda new for me? Or maybe the lecturer here are so calm? I really don't know. But this sem has gotta be the most relax one for me.
It's my first sem in Palam, and overall that I can conclude is it is okay.. Okay, I know.. this place is great, much more better than before, but the surrounding, or maybe my surrounding is not that great. Personally, this one semester is the most stressful, devastated and speechless for me. I've gone far from my creator. I never felt so depressed..
There's a lot happening..
At first, I'm at that phase, where I feel really, really sad you know. Like really disappointed that I'm feeling dissatisfy. I hate myself, but then I realize, I should not lose myself and for Allah I should be sabar and fix my solat. What more is more healing than this two..
So, today, the whole day I took to get near to Him. At night I browse on youtube, searching for sabr motivation, and mufti menk coincidentally happen to pop out. From the video I learned about the history of the prophets...and I cried. To compare my small problems with what the prophets had, such a shame of me... and by the videos I learned about prophet Ayub AS life's. It's a heart opening for me, beautiful story. I should be more grateful instead of being sad for the past or over thinking abt things that's not yet happen.
Because I just love the story of prophet Ayub (AS) here's a bit about my favorite part of the life of the prophet Ayub (AS): Allah tested Ayub (AS) with illness. He was tested with a disease that made others run away from him. No one wanted to be next to him, fearing that they might catch the disease. Did he complain? Nope!
Never a single organ was sound except his heart and tongue, with both of which he glorified Allah, the Almighty all the time day and night. His disease lasted for a long time until his visitors felt disgusted with him. His friends kept away from him and people abstained from visiting him. No one felt sympathy for him except his wife. She took good care of him, knowing his former charity and pity for her.
” She said to Ayyub: “How long are you going to bear this torture from our Lord? Are we to remain without wealth, children or friends forever? Why don’t you call upon Allah to remove this suffering?
” Ayyub (AS) sighed, and in a soft voice replied : “Iblis must have whispered to you and made you dissatisfied. Tell me how long did I enjoy good health and riches?
” She replied: “80 years.”
Then Ayyub (AS) replied: “How long am I suffering like this?”
She said: “7 years.”
Ayyub (AS) then told her: “In that case I am ashamed to call on my Lord to remove the hardship, for I have not suffered longer than the years of good health and plenty.
...
SubhanaAllah, incredible patience. Also, everytime the prophet Ayyub (AS) get tested and all the favors were taken from him, he would say Alhamdulillah. Day and night, throughout the pain and difficult times, Prophet Ayyub would praise his Lord. Even Allah praised Ayyub (AS) for his patience.
Okay, that's all, I'm feeling much, much more better now. Gotta get back to work, I have one more final to submit next week! Shukran and goodnight.
So.. It has been days..
Just a few days left before I get to leave Palam for my mid sem break. I gotta admit, Degree's life was not the same as the days in Diploma at Melaka. My diploma in Lendu was a nightmare that makes me stronger yet grateful. On the contrary, Degree in Palam was a bit... leisure? I think this is the first sem in my study life to feel so... calm? Maybe it is because the environment was kinda new for me? Or maybe the lecturer here are so calm? I really don't know. But this sem has gotta be the most relax one for me.
It's my first sem in Palam, and overall that I can conclude is it is okay.. Okay, I know.. this place is great, much more better than before, but the surrounding, or maybe my surrounding is not that great. Personally, this one semester is the most stressful, devastated and speechless for me. I've gone far from my creator. I never felt so depressed..
There's a lot happening..
At first, I'm at that phase, where I feel really, really sad you know. Like really disappointed that I'm feeling dissatisfy. I hate myself, but then I realize, I should not lose myself and for Allah I should be sabar and fix my solat. What more is more healing than this two..
So, today, the whole day I took to get near to Him. At night I browse on youtube, searching for sabr motivation, and mufti menk coincidentally happen to pop out. From the video I learned about the history of the prophets...and I cried. To compare my small problems with what the prophets had, such a shame of me... and by the videos I learned about prophet Ayub AS life's. It's a heart opening for me, beautiful story. I should be more grateful instead of being sad for the past or over thinking abt things that's not yet happen.
Because I just love the story of prophet Ayub (AS) here's a bit about my favorite part of the life of the prophet Ayub (AS): Allah tested Ayub (AS) with illness. He was tested with a disease that made others run away from him. No one wanted to be next to him, fearing that they might catch the disease. Did he complain? Nope!
Never a single organ was sound except his heart and tongue, with both of which he glorified Allah, the Almighty all the time day and night. His disease lasted for a long time until his visitors felt disgusted with him. His friends kept away from him and people abstained from visiting him. No one felt sympathy for him except his wife. She took good care of him, knowing his former charity and pity for her.
” She said to Ayyub: “How long are you going to bear this torture from our Lord? Are we to remain without wealth, children or friends forever? Why don’t you call upon Allah to remove this suffering?
” Ayyub (AS) sighed, and in a soft voice replied : “Iblis must have whispered to you and made you dissatisfied. Tell me how long did I enjoy good health and riches?
” She replied: “80 years.”
Then Ayyub (AS) replied: “How long am I suffering like this?”
She said: “7 years.”
Ayyub (AS) then told her: “In that case I am ashamed to call on my Lord to remove the hardship, for I have not suffered longer than the years of good health and plenty.
...
SubhanaAllah, incredible patience. Also, everytime the prophet Ayyub (AS) get tested and all the favors were taken from him, he would say Alhamdulillah. Day and night, throughout the pain and difficult times, Prophet Ayyub would praise his Lord. Even Allah praised Ayyub (AS) for his patience.
Okay, that's all, I'm feeling much, much more better now. Gotta get back to work, I have one more final to submit next week! Shukran and goodnight.
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